SophieJ Life Experiences

I find it hard to get out of bed every morning and wonder if I’m the only one who feels this way. I’m exhausted on every level – physically, mentally, and even spiritually. I wonder if this is the result of the three years I spent in grad school, which were absolutely torturous. It’s not just my exhaustion but the world’s constant demands on us. It feels like there’s never a moment to catch our breaths. I dread social media, even though I try to keep my feeds curated. I don’t want to sound like I’m complaining, though. I’m one of the lucky ones, with my priorities being my health, family, home, peace of mind, and staying out of other people’s business. Despite all the reasons I must cry and pray daily, I’m also grateful for what I have.

A few weeks ago, I attended a vigil and cried so hard that I felt my heart was breaking. My home country has been in disrepair for years, and I cannot stop thinking of how to fix it. How many more deaths will we have to count before things get better? I dislike “resilience” because it reminds me of our struggles. As a humanitarian, I witness suffering and hope daily, and it never gets any easier. I don’t want it to become easy, and I know I’ll need to take a break if I stop feeling moved by any of it, as burnout is a genuine concern. There are many instances where healthcare providers, teachers, or other professionals couldn’t catch up on essential cues or signs due to being overworked. This can lead to catastrophic events. It is crucial to practice self-awareness and remember the signs. We must acknowledge that it is only possible to take care of everything and everyone if we take care of ourselves first.

I am here trying to survive, but I know it’s not sustainable. How much longer until our society collapses for real? As millennials, we have done everything expected of us; we went to school, got an education, pursued higher education, and started our careers. Yet, there are still so many barriers to breakthrough! Should we start scamming as a collective? What else is there to do in a society that only takes and wants to tear us down? So, in the words of Blue Ivy’s mother, we won’t let them break our souls. My priorities are to earn money, cultivate meaningful relationships, and advocate for human rights regardless of location. The oppression of any group affects us all, so it’s essential to take action. We can either become victims or take proactive steps toward understanding what doesn’t feel right while also being open to learning. As clear example, although it was painful, I had to end some long-term friendships because it was the right decision for my soul.

I enjoy writing blogs and sharing my thoughts with you, but friends, I must confess that I sometimes struggle to put them into words. Occasionally, some thoughts keep me up at night, but I don’t always write them down. On a different note, why would I bring another human being into a state of suffering if I am not sure that significant changes will happen? Hear me out…. Recently, I stumbled upon an online account of a man and his girlfriend living in storage. Am I wrong to think their priorities are messed up? How are you dating without a stable job and a place to live! Doing activities that could even led to children being born! Now that I completed this last degree…. To all the kind minds wondering what my next move is, please focus on improving your environment before asking about my private affairs. Goodbye.

PS: Sis, this man loves Valentine’s Day….. maybe not with you. #youshouldstoplookingforexcuses.