I recently started a graduate program this Spring semester and I have one question…. who let me do this ????
Grad school is no joke! It’s the same as exercising! You are literally paying to suffer and be stressed! Okayyyyyyy, everyone who went that path keeps telling me it will pay in the end. Still, I just want to scream every week when I see the amount of work I have to produce! I have to say that classes are actually fun. I am learning so much, and it genuinely makes me happy to feel every time a new concept comes in; I’m am excited to know more about it! Classes discussions are also fascinating, as long as you come ready….
But, really!!!! I’ve already cried numerous times over the past six weeks, and I am MIA in most of the things I’ve used to do! I’m answering text messages three days later and keep on apologizing 🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️! Working almost 30 hours a week and staying on top of my assignments is a struggle! I recently exchanged texts with some students who are also going through it. I feel so relieved knowing that they also cried a couple of times already! I feel that only people who are also experiencing the same struggles can understand how you feel! My support system is great, but they don’t get it as much as my colleagues.
So, how do you keep going under pressure? When everything else is also moving non-stop! Every day is a new headline in the news that drained your energy, and the “ panoramic” keeps on trying every one! Couples are breaking up, people are depressed, and that feeling of overwhelming affects all of us at some points! Protecting your space, your mental and physical health is more important than ever. These days, I find myself disengaging in everything that could take my energy away and not fulfilling me at some levels. I don’t even try to deeply analyze anything that does not make any sense for me. Self-care is it!
I want to acknowledge what is going on in the Asian community. I am particularly tired of a new hashtag every time something happens. It saddens me that minorities are still divided instead of confronting the only and terrible issues: white supremacy!
PS: I took the first Covid vaccine shot this weekend!!!!! One more to go! It’s okay to have some doubts, but please, check the sources of your information! There are even videos circulating information that the vaccine has already transformed people into cows!!!!! Really?!!? 🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️🤦🏾♀️😏😏😏😏☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️